Friday, July 29, 2005

Dating season

When was the last time you had a date? A real date date? Maybe even a first date? I mean, the whole shebang – setting a time, meeting up, having a drink/coffee, talking about each other’s jobs, siblings, schools, hobbies etc, walking home together, having butterflies...?

One of the last times I had something like this was actually not with a guy but with 2 new people – a boy and a girl – who I can consider my friends by now. That one was easy, no pressure, no expectations, just plain joy of finding people who see the world similarly to you and who’s humour suits you.

Real dating, on the other hand, is not so easy. There’s a whole range of problems – the ‘do I look ok problem’, the ‘does he like me & do I like him’ problem, the ‘where to go’ problem, the ‘shall we ever see each other after this one’ problem and on goes the list. Generally I agree with what a friend of mine (an unrecognized Greek philosopher:) has said about first dates...
“I don’t like the idea of a first date. It means that you don’t know the other person very well and you have to go out for a first contact, which is going to be probably a bit uncomfortable and you have to prove something. /---/ Actually, a date seems very programmed, western, too civilised for me. I don’t like the idea that a girl asks my phone number and then I have to think of a cool place to take her. And then we go there and we sit down and start talking”

...but, once-in-a-while you can have the “whole-shebang” date, which is not a headache. It’s simply nice and fun and easy and pleasant. And I’m glad I had one:)

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

No drinking on school nights

...this used to be my policy ...coz you know how hard it is to go to work when alcohol plus not enough sleep team up. I’m not sure if it’s the summer or sth else affecting me but the rule has been broken for several times lately. Yesterday was one of the cases...

But I say I can live with a teeny-tiny hangover and slightly slower working speed if the alternative would be missing out of a great night with friends, including dinner, wine, water-pipe, hours of talking, chilling, laughing and just having funnnnnnnn! Thanks guys!

And for future reference (considering, that the weekend is not far away), listen to this very educative and absolutely hilarious story of different alcohols mixing in your
Da alcoholmix

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

'Til i find somebody

I support this theory, that when you have been romantically and emotionally strongly involved with somebody, then it takes another feeling just as strong or stronger to get really over and passed that person. I don’t mean the hurting part after sth ends or even getting on with your normal life but I mean getting so over it that you don’t even THINK about that person any more. So that your mind is so pre-occupied with the new emotion that it helps you let go of the old one. So, that even if this new one would have to end, you wouldn’t go back to thinking about the previous one...

...and... isn’t it sad to think that I still sometimes have thoughts (rare, but nevertheless) about somebody who was in my life 3 years ago?

Damien Rice
Blower’s daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off youI can't take my mind...
My mind...
'Til I find somebody new

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Goodbye-s and hello-s

This SU is neverending:) In a way…On Friday we had a wild night out in Tallinn with Katja. RIFF and BonBon club were on the list. Dancing, drinking, flirting – everything that a night out should include:)

Hangover the next day was unavoidable…but once we recovered from that one, it was time to head for Tartu. (Katja is really doing the TSU again but backwards, Pärnu-Tallinn-Tartu.) Time for me to see my parents and in the evening – discover the “beauty and comfort” of Liisa's dormitory ….and party again, in Pattaya. The place is awful but the party was good. We rocked hard and screamed our lungs out when they played Bon Jovi “it’s my life” and we were singing ... “Tartu, Tallinn, Riga and Pärnuuuuuuu….Tiiii Essss Juuuuu”…had a blast...

Today…a nice coffee and cake at Wilde and it was time to say goodbye again…There surely have been many “goodbyes” lately…but the good thing is that before goodbyes there are usually always “hellos”:)

Thursday, July 21, 2005

SU in retrospect

The group

There they all are for you again – my 25 babies for 2 weeks.

I shudder to think of how good a time I had with those guys. I mean, I love my life but this kind of an escape from reality or normality is like a cherry on a milkshake... it makes it all more perfect. Each of those people was truly a personality, there’s sth I can tell about each and every one of them and there’s memories and emotions connected to many of them.

I liked the whole group dynamic and all the gossips, which were being created on a daily basis and the little jokes and sayings that formed within this SU... like:
Spanish girls saying “A’whatta happen?”
Ruth saying: “Suuuuuuuuuure! Suuuure I’m suuuuuure!”
Yorgos saying: “Tell me, tell me, tell me!”
Kornel saying: "C'mon man"
Nika saying: My wife, I love you my wife” …etc…etc…
I miss the little talks I had with so many of them – on life, love, people, human relations, sex and the city;) and so on... I also miss hearing all the different accents when speaking English – especially Pablo’s Spanglish, which was just adorable:)...and I miss going dancing in clubs with the group!

But you know what, I’m not fooling around when I say that I plan to see many of you again.

All of the photos you can also see on this page and this page.

Monday, July 18, 2005

A' whatta happen?

Is it really over? 2 weeks of bliss and all gone now:(?

I’ve had so many summer universities and it still surprises me how close you can get with people in 2 weeks when you’re together with them 24/7.

I miss you guys!

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Back to civilization

Seems to become bit of a norm already, to write about the happenings of 2 last days.

So we celebrated Jani, strange to do it about 2 weeks later than the actual day, but what the heck. And it turns out latvians have all the same traditions we also have for Jaanipaev - the jump over the fire, drink as much beer as possible, go to sauna, pick flowers etc - it's all connected to prospering, long life, money and for girls - getting married and seeing your future husband in your dreams. (I had no dream.) Sauna was perfect, especially together with jumping into pond... brought back the childhood memories. Oh, and then we did the wishing thing - so that you write your wish on a paper and throw it into fire and then it goes true....well i thought it was supposed to go true the next day but it turns out it applies for the whole year. But i don't think i'm interested in it going true any more:)

Then there was a bout trip on the river - nice at the beginning, wet and cold at the end:) and then we made it to Riga, finally! I've missed Riga a lot. Most of the crowd was too tired to do anything - weak! Only the Slovenian-Estonian connection (4 girls) made it to town...and we had a blast, girls night out in Riga...niiiice...very sex and the city feeling. Asking for where is club Casablanca in front of Casablanca was maybe a bit too much but it was funny alright and makes a good story.

Today the official sightseeing (i'm skipping part of it for the sake of this post:). It's nice to see that everything is quite as it's supposed to be, the dancing lady is there, the pelmeni place is still open till 4, Lido is waiting for us and the weather is perfectly hot.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Lost in wilderness

It's been 2 days in Latvia, in wilderness, at this magnificent place by a lake and everything's been bueno, except for the mosquitos:)............ I dunno why but i have real trouble writing this post. Firstly i seem to have lost my language skills and secondly it seems that things have happened so fast that they haven't settled in my mind, at least not thoroughly enough to be able to write about them, yet.

The group is still great and it seems that even the more quiet people are coming out of their shells. I think the saying "Shallow waters, rocky bottom" (dunno if i got this saying correctly) has a lot of meaning in it:) You know, there are the people who are louder and who run around and dance and hug and kiss and just have FUN (pronounced as funn:) and then there are the ones who you don't really see doing all those things that much and then it just happens that they are the ones who get caught having sex with someone they've just met - go figure!

For me those last days have already been rewarding - in the sense of holiday and rest and also in the sense that i've experienced some things i've never experienced before. I will not elaborate on that one but it's just been fun. I've also had some really interesting conversations and i've realized some things about life, my own life (it's deep, isn't it:) even too deep for me).

"Maybe to have a memory, you need time for reflection, however brief, to let the memory settle and find it's place." Alex Garland

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Holiday mode

The holiday has finally started for me too... and i'm lovin it:)

Friday evening when i arrived to Pärnu it was time for another party night, this time, club Tallinn was on the list. Amazing how you can rock all night even with hip-hop music. Basically it was just a regular party but it was interesting to watch people and human behaviour in a small group. I saw some couples forming, some already breaking up and some refinding eachother again. There's some unanswered love or admiration, call it how you like and some innocent fooling around.

Some people stand out in a positive way and some in a bit less positive. For instance, there's this one guy who seems to be a sweet guy if he wasn't such a playboy. Yesterday he's behaviour was pretty disgusting as he tried sth with almost all the girls...i think he needs a wakeup call and to realize that this way he scares them all away, actually:) And then there's this one girl who seems to be "marking her territory" and playing games that she is not ready to play, emotionally. It'll be intresting to see how this all ends.

Today's been exactly how a holiday should look like. You wake up, you go to the beach, you chill, you play some wacky sports games, you laugh, you have fun, you swim, you get sunburned, you eat, you go and have a nice coffee in a good company, you rest, maybe sleep a little, you shower, you get yourself ready for the evening and then you have the Estonian final party before going to Latvia tomorrow. Well....i've done everything up to the coffee and i just have to take it from here and form the rest of the day exactly as described:)

Friday, July 08, 2005

First we take Pärnu...

So I’ll be going to Pärnu and then to Latvia together with the group. As I understand – most of the time we’ll be in the woods somewhere in the middle of nowhere but I’ll do my best to keep you posted about any new developments;)

….and then we take Latvia!

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Pub crawling

I dunno how much longer I can keep up with this tempo…At least I’m off work next week…
So I skipped the party on Tuesday to have energy for last night and I really needed that. Pub crawling was on the list and nightclubbing afterwards…whew…

Pub crawling was really fun as the 5 teams were doing their best to complete the wacky assignments. Some of the best examples: one of the teams managed to organize a limbo contest on the street in front of Havana…making a group of 60+ tourists take part in it. Then there was a guy who had to get waitress's number in Beer House and came back with a piece of paper – with a phonenumber and the name Enn written on it:) go figure…With the kinky cocktails in Lounge 8 probably the best one was when the Dutch guy offered the Sperm to a table full of young Estonian girls and one of them was a bit worried about getting pregnant from drinkin it..;) And I guess it takes the boldness of a Slovenian girl to walk by the biggest “rullnokk” in Nimeta and snap the pick-up line “Did you just touch my ass?”

After all those pubs it was time for some dancing action in Hollywood. The good thing about the group is that you don’t need any effort to get them dancing…it’s usually “in from the door and straight to the dance floor” it!

Yesterday also got me thinking… I wonder if a girl looks or acts in some special way if smb is interested in her. I don’t mean with this somebody but generally. For why do guys suddenly start appearing one after another at some point. From personal observations I can say that you can go months without any interest from the opposite sex and as soon as there’s one who’s taken to you, there’s another 2 or 3 of them. What a waste! They should be divided throughout periods of time, nice and evenly:)

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

European Night

Yesterday was the day…or rather the night… “European night” – which is basically the night when all those 25 people (plus organizers) bring out da alcohol from the respective 10 countries, whew – that’s a shitload of booze. And for the future reference – European Night without being able to drink any of those liquers sucks big time…but it’d be even worse with drinking the next day at 7 or so a.m.

So, there I was, watching all those 25 and more getting gradually more and more drunk. It was pretty much like watching a bit surreal movie, except I also had the directing powers. So, for my own pleasure I made them take part in Erurovision song contest, which they rather enjoyed. Greece won, quite like in the real one, except for the fact that our singer was male. Then I made them dance to the music I chose and the rest was already out of my hands – I mean all the kissing and mating etc.

I got through the evening quite luckily, doing the organizing part, staying away from the alcohol and keeping the alcohol away from my computer etc, and still, right before leaving (around 3 a.m.) it was still me who got hit in the face. By accident, of course, but with a ping-pong racket with a backhander….not nice, I tell you…not nice at all…but I survived and seemingly without a huge blue mark and I managed to get to work on time and am still up and going…

"I woke up and joyfully realised that a miracle had occurred. I wasn't hungover. Tequila was brilliant. I was never going to drink anything else ever again. Then I realised it was still dark and after a bit of groping around I found my watch, discovered that it was 5:30am and finally figured out the reason I wasn't hungover was because I was still drunk." - Isabelle Beckett

Monday, July 04, 2005

Summer University

The Group

So they have arrived. All 25 of them. From 10 different countries. And the Summer University (Tartu-Tallinn-Pärnu-Riga) has officially started. At first I thought I will not find a connection with them but after the weekend I can say that the group is good. There are some good-looking boys and girls. One of them looks a bit like TJ (which is a trip down the memory lane and deserves a whole separate blog entry). There are the jokers and the more quiet ones but none of them is invisible, if you know what I mean.

2 weeks with the group ahead (on and off because of the work obligations, but still:), lots of parties and fun and hopefully not many problems.

So for a short while the posts will be in English as there may just be some foreign interest in reading it.

Friday, July 01, 2005

Meet my crowd

Foto: Assar Jõepera

Ehk siis, saage tuttavaks, sellises seltskonnas ma töötan. Me oleme kõik natuke asjalikud, natuke hullud, pisut targad, vahel rumalad, väga võistluslikud, vahel kakleme, kuid lepime kiiresti, hindame ja armastame üksteist ja oleme altogether väga mõnusad, päriselt:)

Ja see pilt sümboliseerib minu jaoks eesti suve…ilusamat osa sellest…ja sellistel hetkedel tuleb mulle meelde, miks ma siit ikka veel ära pole kolinud.